Supremely talented TV presenter and former Strictly Come Dancing finalist Lalla Hirayama has been very vocal about her health recently, speaking about her panic disorder and being diagnosed with polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) when she was 27 years old. She also shared her health journey with radio veteran DJ Fresh on The Fresh Breakfast Show earlier this week:
‘As a woman your body is your temple. A lot of stuff is going on every day that we deal with and sometimes there is maybe a heavy period, or maybe you’re missing your period and we think, “Okay, well maybe it is just a phase”. And it gets to a point where you’re like, “Okay, hang on, maybe it’s not, and now I’m really scared to go check.’’
In January this year she posted this picture of her fully stocked medication cabinet on Twitter:
Living with PCOS has been quite a journey. Trying to figure out what works has been the most expensive exercise to date. This is my meds cupboard. I know it’s ridic. All natural stuff though . I’ve tried prescription meds and they made my condition worse. pic.twitter.com/6UlCo2ECku
— Lalla Hirayama (@Lalla_Hirayama) January 8, 2018
As one of Marie Claire’s New Naked celebrities, Lalla penned this beautifully candid letter to her body, detailing her tumultuous journey with her body and health complications:
Dear Physical Body,
I just want to straight out say, ‘I’m sorry for being bat sh** crazy!’ This letter serves as an apology to you, but more than that, this is therapy for me.
I believed for many years that hiding all that makes you mine was a good thing. Each pore, mark and dent was better off covered up and hidden. I asked you dumb questions such as ‘Why do those ears of ours look so weird?’ ‘Why does our nose point a little skew?’ ‘Why does our skin have to feel like braille from all the acne?’
I had a strange idea of what perfection was. And in my pathetic defence, since we were kids, we have always strived for a perfect score – success and achievement. This was the recipe to make ‘them’ happy, then ‘they’ will like us. Now, at 30, I have realised what nonsense that is. Our 20s were a roller-coaster, yet you were loyal and never let my opinions or those of others stop you from doing your job, which is more than I can say for myself. To be honest, I would have walked out if I were you. My 20s taught me that you reflect my mental state. I know that sickness starts in the mind – and so does health.
I can work out for hours in the gym, and work hard to make millions in the bank, but if my thought process is wrong, eventually everything will fall apart. I have taken responsibility for everything. I know this was the first step to starting anew and discovering who I was always meant to be. I owe a lot to PCOS and the panic disorder – it was the health crisis that led me to become more aware of our physical and mental health, and started the healing process. I am grateful for that. You have been a great teacher, and you are still teaching me many lessons. I appreciate your patience with me, and hope you are proud of who I am becoming.
I promise to carry on learning about you, to watch out for signs of change, and to protect you the way you have me. My journey with you is far from over. Even though I am nervous about getting older, I am ready to take on the challenge – and let’s make sure its fun! As Wayne Dyer puts it, ‘We are not human beings in search of a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings immersed in a human experience.’ I am honoured to go on this journey with you. You deserve all the kindness. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. I love you.
Your astra-physical occupant,
Read the #DearBody letters of all the New Naked 2018 celebrities here. Marie Claire’s 2018 #DearBody #NewNaked issue in partnership with American Swiss is on sale now.